Evading a Bullet for my dreams ( not literally )
I'm in my second year now in law school and currently studying in a school where pretty much they do the same thing from the first school that i took up law but in a more kind way. Yes i did fail some of my subjects because nobody is perfect and as a fine arts major i had to catch up on plenty of things about the law, the departments of the government and other stuff that you may find boring, long story short, i was an art student I entered law school and because of the differences between the two majors, mainly about study habits, memorizing the constitution and reading a huge amount of cases, I failed some subjects.
I realized then when i entered law on my first year that I may need some help on some of my subjects and was trying to find a way on how to ease the pressure on some of those subjects that i need to pass. On the day then that i was in line to pay for the midterms a person approached me , who shall not be named, and asked me about my major and why i'm interested on becoming a lawyer. I then answered his question that i wanted to be a lawyer because I wanted to protect my family when someday they may need a lawyer in case some legal problems arises. He then asked several of stuff and I answered all of them due to boredom of the long line to pay for my midterms, In short i thought that he just wanted some small talk in order to pass the time.
At the middle of the conversation he then suddenly asked me if I want to join a fraternity. He promised me that when you join a fraternity or their fraternity. That I would get support for some of my subjects, that the fraternity will help me during my time in law school, that some professors are indeed members of the fraternity and that I would get a sense of brotherhood from joining a fraternity like theirs. So as there are plenty of benefits from joining i accepted his offer.
The following day I was invited to the fraternity library and was interviewed by some of their members, i forgot their names but i really don't plan on telling any names in this piece so that's that. Anyway they interviewed me asked some personal stuff about me and was told to return the next day for service which i did. When I arrived in the library the following day i noticed what the place looked and smelled like, it was small, it was hot and the place pretty much smells like a smoking area. The place also was pretty dirty and messy from the trash that can be seen on the floor. The place needs a lot of cleaning. Anyway the people inside who were members tried to be friendly by giving me cigarettes, chatting me up with again small talk and told me about how the fraternity works. On the first day and the second it was all like a dream where you suddenly become associated with these group of people who you could look up to for surviving in law school and has this brotherhood that could not be broken, having this idea of being a part of something bigger than yourself and being a part of a strong brotherhood gives you a sense of entitlement that you could do anything with these people. They were pretty cool and amazing the first time I met them.
It was then that i realized that I wanted to become a member of their fraternity. But as they say it was all a façade and that it's all too good to be true. When i was being invited to the fraternity I was promised that no hazing will happen and that I really just need to do some service for them and because there were already plenty of news about deaths in hazing and believing that the government already banned it from happening anywhere including the school where i'm studying, that i really just need to do some service and that their fraternity has a good reputation with members coming from the professors that also teach law and were already amazing lawyers and that I'm going to already be a member after such I believed them. Which is by the way all Bullshit.
On the third day or fourth it started. At first it was all slaps in the face, yes it hurts but they don't want you to show to them that youre getting hurt. They did the slaps in order to prepare you for the night where you will meet some more of the members of their fraternity. I was then wondering what will happen on the night and was nervous and scared about the upcoming events. So after class I went back to the fraternity where they bought me food for free and was telling me to get to know the person which will be with me during the meeting with some of their members. This person with me, who also wanted to become a member of the fraternity, was a pretty nice person. He looked innocent and he looked like the kind of person who was kind to his parent's friends and to other people who was around him , he was a pretty cool guy too and i was impressed that somebody so young ( because i'm old) had so much promise in him. He was smart , he had potential and if he worked hard he could be anything that he wants to be.
On the night when we met some of the members me and the person with me trying to also join the fraternity was introduced to another person who also wanted to join. There were three of us and was told to be acquainted with each other because we will need it for later, we didn't know what would happen later but we hoped for the best. So when later came it was when it started. The hazing.
I will sum up what the hazing was like as short as i can, they will hit you, slap you, demoralize you, make you look like an idiot, will make you act like a moron and they will do all they can in order to dehumanize you. You to them is shit and all of this things are being done to you in order to make you realize that they will always be there for you and that everybody who was a member of the fraternity or their brotherhood did feel the same way as i was feeling when i was being hazed.
Such things or incident happened to me for about two or three days and it was done towards me or against me after a grueling service that i need to do for some of their members. It was all time consuming and as days passed by i realized that it was not all worth it, That in order to become a lawyer you don't need this that you only need the support of people who is a part of your family that accepts you for who you are, from friends who you became close friends with without any judgement or need to hit you for some reason that is quite stupid, just because a person on joining a brotherhood got beat up to join the brotherhood doesn't mean that you also need to get beat up to join it, if that's the case then everybody who needs to go to Heaven also needs to be nailed up to a cross somewhere before dying. It's all for me not making any sense and my parent's did not work their ass off just for me to be beat up in school where i cannot defend myself against these group of people in which if i die pretty much is sure to be a qualifying circumstance for murder.
The first one to quit was the the third person introduced to me and my other acquaintance he got beat up so hard that he had a mental breakdown. I and the other person with me continued on and was beat up pretty much until 12 am ( i know this because if youre getting beat up you pretty much will look at the time on how long you are getting beat up , it's a simple fact)
Friday is when i will become initiated to the fraternity after service and the hazing. I pretty much tried to continue on because i thought to myself , hey two days left how hard could that be i'll just have to man it up for the next few days. But unfortunately i got sick on the second to the last day and was late for service. When i arrived at the library i got scolded by a member and someone arrived who is also pissed off because he had an exam at law school. He then was carrying some ice cream and was eating some of it, it was raining back then and i thought to myself why would you buy ice cream on such a cold day. He then saw me grin and was called by the said member. He asked why i am late and why i was grinning to which after replies he then would hit me with a damn slipper in the face so hard i'm sure my future son would feel that slap ( just joking but he did hit me pretty hard)
It was then while being slapped so hard that I held his damn hand, I stood up got my bag and told them all. I quit. I walked out without any word or any explanation when the other acquaintance who was with me trying to join tried to convince me to comeback. It was raining pretty hard then and it was so dramatic like the ones you see in the movies when i answered him that" no , i don't want to come back , this is not worth it and I'll become a lawyer on my own hard work with out help or consideration from any professors that was a member of the fraternity they were in"
While walking away from the fraternity and i thought to myself. Is this a right choice. Maybe i'll know someday.
Well. I know now. At this time March 23, 2018 ,All those people who was there in the fraternity, who slapped me and beat me up including the person who was with me who eventually joined and got accepted to the fraternity was now arrested and detained for the MURDER of a person who tried to join the fraternity but died while in the act of hazing due to the physical injuries inflicted at him.
No i don't get a sense of joy at their detention or arrest, but i do pity them especially the person who was initiated with me because all of their dreams are now destroyed for the reason of the brotherhood itself.
Things could have been better for them, their families are now in disarray and I only hope for the best at their lives.
Maybe they could still make things right by paying for the price of their actions and that could only be done through time.
Good thing i did not go through with their initiation it was the right choice after all.
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